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I am rambling on this today because I have my own struggles with this one. In Proverbs 31:12 it says, " she does him good and not evil all the days of her life." This is such a powerful verse to read and then try to live by. Basic point seems to be, if you read it all, is Don't kill, mame, harm your husband. I can do that much, it is the other I struggle with because anything not good and uplifting to your husband is evil. Example: Talking about him behind his back to my friends when he irritates the crap out of me, demeaning him to my children in one way or another, discouraging him, dishonoring him, talking down to him, nagging him, and the list goes on..... and on…. And on…..
My current struggle is getting my husband off to work in the AM with a smile. I did well at this for awhile, when we first got married. You know, the normal stuff, fixing his breakfast, having his clothes ready, and of course sending him off with a big hug and kiss. Since the kids have been born he has sometimes left the house with none of these things. He wakes up SINGING! Literally. It makes me crazy. (I know, what a stupid thing to let bother me, but it DOES!) I have in those AM hours the ability to make or break my husband's potential for a good day and am doing a poor job with it. This verse is a reminder to me that I am to do him good and not evil, regardless of what I want, all the days of his life. Wow. This shouldn’t be such a challenge, should it? Being married is WORK!
I also realized lately that my children hear these negative things I am doing to my husband and it has affected their attitudes. It may be the only time I am negative to him, only 5 or 10 minutes but they mirror my attitude throughout the day. I am committing to work on this problem because it will definitely make me feel better, make Michael happy, and give my children a better example to live by. Amazing how one small tidbit of wisdom can effect so many areas of ones life, huh?

I have accepted:
It’s a hard thing to be a Christian 100% of the time.
It’s because love costs something, good stuff is rarely free.
It costs our comfort (not wanting to pray in front of others, getting up out of bed to come to church, being willing to get out there and witness), it costs our wallet(tithing), it costs our lives!!
Love is what cost Jesus his life.
And that’s the only reason I'm living (and YOU are living), and He is who I'm living for. Gotta keep THAT in perspective, at the TOP of the priority list.

"God does great things that we cannot comprehend." Job 37:5

but I don’t have to comprehend them to appreciate them.