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No more fear
Occasionally, one of my children, especially Jordan, will begin to worry about something. She will come to me, brow furrowed and voice laden with stress and say,
“What if?”
“What if Daddy loses his new job and we have no place to live?” or….
“What if you get cancer like Pop did Momma?” or…..
“What if a bad guy comes into the house at night?”
“What if…”
“What if…”
“What if….”
I look at them, rub their little heads and pull them into my lap. Then, I say…
“Why don’t you let me take care of that? It is not your job.”
Recently, we made a big decision for me to be a stay at home mom again, and for Mike to switch jobs. It was not a decision we made flippantly. We prayed about it and thought about it. We did our homework and talked about it endlessly, but when all was said and done, we really felt it was God’s plan for us to pursue it even if His purpose in it was less about financial gain and more about teaching us something along the way.
Even so, it is tempting to look to Heaven and say, “What if…”
“What if a month goes by and he sells no cars?…”
“What if there's not enough spare time home with us?”
“What if our 4Runner doesn't sell?”
And God is pulling us close to softly say, “Why don’t you let me take care of that? If you are genuinely seeking me, I’ll never lead you astray and if in your weakness you make a mistake, I will cover you.”
It is that assurance that frees us to live without fear. He never promised life would be problem free but He calls us to transcendence because the “what ifs” are no match for Him.
“Lord, my heart is not haughty, nor my eyes lofty. Neither do I concern myself with great matters, nor with things too profound for me. Surely, I have calmed and quieted my soul, like a weaned child with his mother; like a weaned child is my soul within me.” Psalm 131: 1 -2
We are leanin' on ya God, 100%, and it's a nice hammock to be in :)
I am proud of the progress he has led us to, and am loving MY journey. I am enjoying my kids, and I value my friendships.
3 comments:
My life has taken new and wonderful direction since I have no more fear...
choosing not to live a life of fear is a huge undertaking! but so needed for a life of joy, and a life that god can work in. for me it sometimes takes constant re-letting go. :) god takes it for awhile, but then i slowly start worrying about it again and have to repeat the process. but it keeps me close to him...which is probably the purpose anyway. if i could just learn to stay next to him always!
Yes, when we jumped right into this business, it was a huge leap of faith for us. I have spend so much time in prayer about it. It is such a comfort to see that God is taking care of us. It is so exciting to see how things fall into place. But, yes, it is also a constant struggle to not worry, and question...are we doing the right thing...what if someone doesn't book a wedding...it is tough! I know that having faith that he will take care of us has brought us closer as a family, and also brought me closer to GOd. I think this is the first time in my life that I really have let God take care of us....it is exciting and scary at the same time.
I look at my kids and see how they have no worrys at all about if we will take care of us or not...they just trust us. There is so much we can learn from our children.
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